Early Morning High Thoughts - 5

I just fed Oli this morning. Earlier than usual because I couldn't sleep, or continue sleeping for that matter. I may have gotten really high with friends to the point where I fainted or passed out. Thankfully everything was fine, my roommate and our friend came bursting in to see if I was okay. I just laid there on the floor with some iced tea. Then our friend thought of an orange trick and believe it or not, it helped with the high. So I started getting up, gathered myself a bit and then went back to my roommate and our friend.

The reason I'm telling you all this is because, though I went to bed early, I find myself unable to get back to sleep and feel an odd leftover high. It is currently 6:42am as I'm writing this and it shocks me I'm not falling asleep. Any minute now I should be tucked away but the covers don't call me and my period is keeping me at edge with the proposition of sleeping in awkward positions. Instead, I type away my silly little thoughts and see if I can make any sense of them.

It's been a little over a month I've been at Sid Lee. Almost 2 months now! Crazy to think it's only been a short time but also feels like it's been no time at all! Aside from that, HUGE news. After 7+ years of living together, my roommate and I have decided to part ways. Not only is the price of living increasing, but it's becoming hard for them to live out in the city. With that being said, my love is still within the city and they are looking for more of a home life, easier than the bustling crazy city. Believe it or not, my boyfriend and I found a place and welp, we've decided to move in together! How crazy to think that we've been dating for little over a year now and we're moving in. I've never felt so loved, appreciated, beautiful, respected etc., in my entire life. He has made me feel honest to God like the most special person in the world. They make me happy and I honestly cannot wait to start this new chapter in my life with them.

The only big elephant in the room left is (come full circle) Oli. My roommate and I are going to have to fight each other to see who will be taking him. If you are reading this, I'm dreadfully sorry for what will transpire when we do eventually talk about the topic, but for now, let us live our days with him and when that move in day comes, we'll have to talk and try to be as civil as we can. Though it will be heartbreaking for one of us at the end, at least he'll be going off with ONE of us. He'll continue to live his wobbly life loved and full of food, which we both know he loves.

What else is swimming around in my mind?

OH YES. 

Speaking of moving, if you are reading this, we will need help at some point in November to move. If you know me and are available on weekends in November, keep us in mind and please help us if you are able! Obviously, I don't expect a storm of people to come out, but if you do, we will treat you to food and good company. Even if you physically cannot help us move but want to join the group of us and just helping me rearrange things and stuff like that, that is also welcome! I miss having people over and it would be nice to reconnect with you all! I'm sorry for not connecting sooner or even continuing to connect after having connected already. Lots of connect. But life happens, things are constantly changing and moving in the world and unfortunately, that's just how life goes.

Generally, I do miss hanging with my friends. After having broken it off with a few people, I have reconnected with others but it would be nice to actually see you people! I know I have my friends in Niagara and I do try to visit as often as I can, but there's also my Toronto or GTA dwellers. I miss you folks and if you are reading this and we literally haven't talked in ages or even if we've talked yesterday, I would love to see a hello from you and hopefully we can PROPERLY reconnect, talk, hang and just shoot the shit about our lives. Sound good? Sweet.

What shall I do with the rest of my morning? Well, I could have cereal but my tummy is upsetti with the cramps. I could play with Oli, but my roommate is sleeping and I'd rather not wake them. I could leave for work super early and wind up whenever. I could keep writing aimlessly and see what happens. I could edit my books. I could do so much with my time but I'm stuck because all these ideas are popping up and I have no idea where to land. So for now, I'm going to play on my phone until it hits a bit later in the morning and then head to work because I guess I hate myself! 

That is all for now. I love you and appreciate you reading this. Today's gonna be a weird one but at least you won't be the only weirdo around! (Ain't nothing wrong with being weird either!)