WHere Have you been - 4

Well hello!

It's been a little while so I thought I'd make a general life update here.

I have decided to move on with another job! What?! But Vittoria, didn't you JUST get a new job? The answer is kind of. I've been at my current work place for over a year and it just felt like I wasn't really moving anywhere and it felt like I wasn't really needed so I looked for another job and found myself stumbling into a new one! Same role, different clients and some different perks! I'll be working at Sid Lee as of Sept 12th. Which is both terrifying and exciting! I've been welcomed with open arms and I cannot wait to show the team what I'm made of. However, I did have to give the news to my current work place and let's just say they weren't too happy to hear the news, but alas, it is done and I'm now on my way to the new job! 

On top of all this, life has decided to kick my ass a few times. I've been running lower on money than I'm used to and it's because of my own fault in not budging correctly so I need to make myself a proper spreadsheet and actually budget properly! Not only that, but I was a victim of a scam (Insert the biggest sad face). I tried to get something organized with my PayPal account, I found the wrong number and let's just say I fell for a trap and ended up giving these scammers money. SO now I need to plan with my bank to sort it all out and hopefully get my money back! With getting the new job, my current work place has put a lot of pressure on me to get some major documents and guidelines done for them so that's what I've mainly been working on this week. I'll be training some of my coworkers and boss to know how to do my role and everything in between. Sounds kind of backwards to me but it is what it is and boy have I felt overwhelmed. But I'm doing my best to just stand tall and work through it all!

That all aside, life has also been blessing me in big and small ways! I've finished fully writing my first two books in my series! Now is the editing, rewrites and other fun stuff. I've got my new job, so big change but also I've been starting to dive back into my hobbies a bit more. Doing more sinigng when I can, editing videos for fun and enjoying some very small walks to get myself out of the house. I saw the Barbie movie which was both very funny but also VERY sad. It hit in all the right spots and I enjoyed every gosh dang moment of it. Recently, I've been diving back into some video games, mostly Pokémon and Genshin Impact since they've both updated! Genshin has been an obsession of mine since it came out. I've been playing it since the beginning and I don't see myself slowing down anytime soon. Pokémon will always have a spot in my heart and I love just adventuring around, even if it's just the simple game of Pokémon Go. It's still fun to me. I mean, hell, I have a Bulbasaur tattoo for crying out loud haha.

Where else was I going with this?

Ah yes.

I've been continuing therapy which has been good for the soul. Still taking my daily meds but I definitely need to talk to my doctor about upping my anxiety meds. After COVID hit, everything changed with my anxiety. In fact, it's gotten worse. I have this thing where I gag when I get really anxious and sometimes it leads to puking. I've had it for years and nothing I've done has helped it aside from smoking weed or sitting up when I'm laying down. It's been horrendous to deal with and I hope by increasing my anxiety meds, maybe it'll help? Or it could make things worse, I guess we'll see. The fun of fucking around with meds woo! 

What else has happened?

OH RIGHT!

I ended my friendship with four people in the past few months. It's been crazy how life has changed without them in my life. Yes, I have moments of loneliness and yes, I do miss them a ton but they were incredibly toxic and just not people I want to be around anymore. It was a big step but one that needed to be taken. I'm sick of being walked all over or used for their own benefit. Thus, I ended it. One being my longest friendship. It hurts but it is what it is. My life has been so much brighter and lighter now that they are out of my life. I don't feel like I have to constantly be on the worry or feel like I have to constantly communicate with people all the time. Now I feel relaxed, lighter and just generally better. 

That's all I've got for today but I hope you are doing well out there.

Thanks for reading if you did and until my next rant or idea, have a wonderful day/week/month/year!